~~TT~~

recently im so mad wif everythgs.....sad....
y'day mr. vincent write out oni left 105 days will reach SPM d....after i saw it i almost siao ki....how???until now even bio me also cant finish study yet....sumore stil got so many subject need me 2 study....im goin mad soon.....arghh~~~~~~
2day yen theng ask what happen 2 my wrist....suddenly...i feel so sad....TT...just told her it was the scar last time i cut my hand.....i keep on ask myself why i hav so many scar just bcause of him?????is'r worth????now he chasing other girls d....why am i stil love him so deep?????why am i always like 2 being stupid????thousand of question keep on appear in my mind....haiz....TT...i think nobody will now what my feeling now...i should keep on control myself 2 4gt evrythgs as fast as possible....TT....
but 4 me....everythgs i hav do 4 him is worth....mayb u all will jus said tat im stupid....but....did u listen b4???when u in love u will b blind~~~~it's true....
then about friendship....i cnt even noe who i can trust also....everyone i just treat them as a normal friend....i din even dare 2 told them bout my secret....my friend really say the right thgs....why am i always keep my secret alone but don share wif sumone????but....not i don wan 2 tell sumone....but i really dono who i can tell also....last time i just will share my thgs wif him....but now....he leave me also....tat means really nobody can share wif me d....TT...
after sch our netball hav a small party 2 celrebrate 4 tat day we won the competiton....yummy yummy....so long time din ate KFC lo~~~but actually i don like 2 eat chicken wan....lolxz....
then khang wooi come 2 fetch me after i back from sch....we go 2 find tubo 2gether.....cause he got hp need 2 ask tubo repair....then at tubo eh shop until around 630...me n khang wooi also cabut liao.....then go n hav our dinner~~~waw....the fried rice really nice yea.....
the after dinner also fetch me home liao lo.....haiz....gai....at home alone again.....start thinking nonsense again.....arghhhhhhhhhh......really wan crazy d la me.....TT

16 days 2 go~~~~^^
104 days 2 go~~~~TT

fucking off~~

2day din go sch....damn tired la...mayb cause y'day go skate sumore late slp....so just told my father headache then continue slp d....wakakaka.....
after wake up study sum bio lo....TT...i goin mad la...haiz....so many thgs wait me study~~~but im stil fooling around....dono what i think also wan r....haiz....hope i can more concentrate on my study la.....
then after tat go 2 my grandma house liao lo....on the way saw kai ling...she wearing uniform leh...stil tot tat she went 2 sch 2day...mana tau after tat she came 2 my grandma house find me...she said...2day i slp whole day....swt....ponteng again....
just talk awhile nia she back d....then i go n watch movie liao lo....tat wan ntv7 4-5pm eh movie....just simply watch when i was at my grandma house....
hmm....i feel tat wat they say in the movie really right lo....why when a guy outside got other girl every1 just blame tat girl but why not tat guy????4 my opinion....i will blame both of them!!!!cause if not tat guy hiao hiao got gf/wife liao stil go pikat other girl will the girl wif him???then the girl also hiao hiao...noe the guy got gf/wife d stil wan 2 b wif tat guy 2gether....i dono whether r u all which viewing my profile wif agree wif me not...but it's just my opinion~~~
all GUY suck!!!!!!
after tat when i goin 2 tuition...listen tiok my uncle quarrel wif his gf.....hng...tis guy also hiao wan la....althought he is my uncle but still need 2 say...it's ok 4 u goin 2 divorce wif ur wife but how cum u got so many gf at 1 time????fuck off!!!!u thought u r superman???i think even superman also cnt got so many gf at 1 time....ur wife so difficult on gv birth 2 little babies 4 u but u wanna divorce wif her...what r u all guy thinking bout????i noe tat....cause not u guys pregant...u all will nvr noe hw suffer is when pregant!!!sumore the baby is not in ur boby for 9 months time u cnt even get the feel when a girl pregant!!!!u all guys nvr appreciate when u hav a good wife/gf.....then oni blame back the girl dono hw 2 treat u good....but did u guys appreciate bout ur wife/gf????did u noe everythgs ur wife/gf do also 4 ur guys good????u all nvr noe bout it!!!!u all oni noe hw 2 lie ur gf/wife n fuck her!!!!!
haiz...i really feel disappointed on u guys~~~~i nvr meet a nice guy also....girl~~~dont be so childish d....wake up!!!!without guys we cnt even die...we can work ourself 2 get money n live....
in guys' eyes we just a machine 2 let them fuck off~~~~a machine 2 gv birth baby~~~~

[[for tis all is just my own opinion....unless let me meet a nice guy...if not tis opinion wil nvr change in my mind~~~]]

haiz...waste money's day~

2day the wheather also nice nice la....so beh seok 2 go sch hope 2 slp more la....haiz....TT
then whole day talk talk talk again lo...i also dono what point 4 me to go sch....i just go there waste the time oni....i prefer study at home la....stupid!!!!!!!!
then me n kai ling plan 2 go queensbay skate~~~~we took the queensbay eh bus go then reached there at around 430.....
then start skate liao lo.....me so geng leh....din fall also....wakakaka....but i learn b4 la....long long long time ago.....lucky tat i stil noe hw 2 skate.....but pity kai ling~~~donno fall hw many times leh.....haiz.....pay money 2 find pain leh.....siao.....but really expensive lo....rm16........although is unlimited la....but stil expensive la....then got member is rm8 but the member card rm50 r!!!!!!siao meh....hw 2 count also not worth tat....so not planin 2 go anymore.....really waste money.....
abit tired la 2day.....cause afternoon din slp tiok....sumore go skate.....now abit slpy d.....finish write the book 4 sharlynn i also wanna go oioi liao la....if not tmr sure i wil siao ki!!!!!!

~omg~

2day rain 4 whole day lo....damn seok....but wasted la...hav 2 go sch....haiz....
many ppl absent lo....2day eh period quite nice ma...all can talk talk talk eh....sien nia....
2day got new bio teacher come.....OMG!!!!holly shit la....the teacher on 19 years old....graduated from CLHS at 2005.....at 1st i thought i listen wrong leh....19....really swt wif him....
lucky tat ms loo finish teache the front of chapter 4 if not i also dono hw he goin 2 teach us liao....hahaha....
then fast fast nia almost wan finish sch liao.....but stupid me....hav 2 stay back sold ice-cream....not sctually got ppl buy also eh....waste the time nia....n waste the nice wheather 4 me 2 slp nia....hahha....

[dono why when chatting wif her sum times i will....''chi chu'' wan wor....am i fallin in love wif her????i also dono la....dont wan think so much 1st....wait until the day go out wif her oni say lo...if really....then try lo....hahah.....]

yeah!!!

yeah!!!finally....we won the competiton d^^^so happy la....but sumthgs tat make me more happy is.....sum body kiss me~~~~really nice la....haha....so miss tat kiss leh.....of cause la...i kiss her also....wakakak....
after my competition kai ling ask me go n accom her wor....actually me quite tired liao eh....but nvm la....better than stay at home n start thinkin nonsense again....so at last i also go 2 prangin lo....we crap lots at aloha n im remain sms wif her~~~hahaha....sweet sweet time for me la....happy happy...
around 730 my papa came 2 fetch me go tuition liao....but so sui...raining~~but lucky me din wet tiok....haha....then after tuition go home liao~~~tired lo...whr also don haope 2 go liao....
2day is bon ordori...but i din go la...cause no ppl accom no transport also....so stay at home lo....rest better...hehez....but abit sad cause cnt watch the nice nice firework...TT
actually i very like 2 watch firework wan....if watch it wif beloved wan...wow...more good r....romantic sumore...but i think i dont hav the chance la....TT

[2day find out tat ''yuan lai'' the girl who kiss me she love me eh....but me also dono got love her not....haiz....blank blank blank.....my brain get stuck again le]

tired~~~

waw....recently keep on training for netball competition....damn tired la....got time nia tiok slp till like little pig d....lol
but although tired but stil hav fun...cause long time din hav such practice d....can no need go class...haha....n crap lots....^^ i LOVE netball!!!!
2day is our 1st day for the Liga competition...at our sch oo....not bad la....1st game nia win d....paiseh nia...cause is win our sch other team...haha....even me older than them...but we sil ho liao gok eh.....hahaha.....
2day saw back Yang Meh Meh....hmm...im thinking over there....y last time i will fall in love 2 her leh???really dont understand now leh....for who is noe Yang Meh Meh....dont let her noe i love her b4 oo....hehez....cause feel tat im stupid tat time....
recently mayb cause of the training i feel much better d....din always think about nonsense....but the competition only 2days la...hope after tat i stil can remain don think any nonsense thgs la....n concentrate 2 my study.....
USM open competition will around our trial....i hope tat time i wont b so tired and mad wif both thgs....hahaz...i noe i will...but i try my best 2 done it as well as i can la....
tired tired....just back from sch nia....wanna take bath n continue bcame little pig again liao....^^

recently got no mood 2 blogging....

haiz....im suck im stupid n im useless.....!!!!!!!!!!!
i think i will stop bloggin 4 awhile...until i recorver......TT
now i pass my day wif cry cry n cry...ntg else.....TT

special day~~

finally today i go sch liao....phew....waste time at sch again lo....keep on dreaming in the class nia....
after sch take a nap mana tau over slp again....papa wake me up again...then fast fast take my bath n go grandma house liao....2day jay get scold haiz...but i cant say anythgs also really is his fualt.....
then when go tuition dono y cnt concentrated....keep on think about my P!6?Y DArL!n6....haiz.....sad sad sad....sob sob....
after home suddenly my hp rang stil tot who will cal me....is my andrew korkor....i noe he realy sad d if not he wont cal me eh....recently he always cal me mgs me...but ntg special just cause of.....i cnt say promise him d.....then he said wanna came 2 find me then ok lo...since im free also....
we hav a talk inside his car...haiz...so sorry tat i cant help him at all(i think)....but hope he really think carefully la.....n hope after he came 2 find me he will feel much more better than before....then he suggest 2 go round....i just bring my hp n house's keys then go out wif him d....
i ask him if kena blocking how???he say din got so lucky kena blocking eh la.....but we really so lucky la....kena 2times....lolx....but lucky la...the police just c nia then let us go through d.....haha....after he fetch me home also 1200 liao lo.....so fast accom my korkor almost 2 hrs....
korkor dont think so much d yea.....but i noe u cnt c this words...cause u dont noe about i got writing such blog.....
wanna take bath n slp d...tmr stil wanna go sch....

moody day...

recently everyday also moody.....
2day my papa receive letter from sch liao....from jan-june total up i got 43 days din go sch....so tmr i must go sch....if not sure i get chop d....but i also wont always go sch...if he force me....sure i wont stay here anymore!!!!!!i swear!!!what i say i really mean it!!better dont make me mad!!!
2day do revision 4 my f4 bio....i think i stop study my bio n start study f4 chemistry 1st...even tat i havnt finish my f4 bio.... but if my chemistry fail i also gone nia....then me tiok cnt study the sub i wan d.....so must work more hard!!!!!
wake up d vanessa u must make it!!!!!prove 2 all the stupid ppl c....even u din go sch also can get good result!!!!u must do it vanessa!!!!
actually 2day i wan go sch wan...but mayb y'day drink beer d so 2day cnt wake up on time so dont wan go liao lo.....y'day me whole day din eat sumore go drink beer...i really mad d lo i think....haiz....nobody can save me liao.....vanessa ki siao liao....!!!!!!
so 2day except study sum bio other time i just waste it as usual....haiz...no place go also....
2day i din again lo......cause din go sch sumore din go out.....so no need eat lo....2day din eat liao....but din feel hungry at all....i think my stomach got problem d.....lol.....cause din got gastric also.....
haiz dont wan think so much la.....i just hope everythgs pass soon....n my happy can find back whr am i.....dont lost again.....

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y'day i pass a happy night...cause darling accom me whole night....^^
y'day also is ying bday then we go out 2gether lo....after tat she fetch me go tuition....hehez....
2day actually wanna go sch eh...but slpy lo.....so din go again lo....hahaz....gai nia tis week oni go 1 day.....but i really dont like 2 go sch la.....dono y....mayb cause me lazy gua...i also dont noe just hate 2 go sch....haiz...
2day got work r....stil thought can work wif Vangie manatau she din came....5jie cal her she also din ans....gai nia....haha....finally 5jie gv us salary 2day....^^but i stil hav take all yet cause 2day sales not enough....nvm la...i not really need money also....mayb tmr will go prangin take gua...
haiz....sad darling 2day cnt fetch me after work but lucky tat ying came 2 prangin 2day then ask her fetch me back lo.....so paiseh la.....anyways thanks yea...^^
dono y i feel like mayb i really not suit 2 wif my darling....we just keep on quarrel.....haiz....dono y also...sad....TT i really should think carefully.....
quite tired 2day....just back from work....wanna go take bath then slp d....

yeah!!back home...

yeah finally back home again!!!!!
haha.....2day i got go sch oo....guai leh....hahaz....2day talk lots wif my friend....quite ok lo my feel....got abit unhappy....cause.....haiz...dont wan say la....
after finish sch go home slp liao....haha....put alarm at 330...but cnt wake up on time....my papa wake me up at 430....lucky....my papa din angry at all wor....din ''luan'' at all also....mayb cause 2day is my papa BDAY!!!!!haha....i put my present at his door....hope he will like it la.....^^but very cheap nia....wakaka....
suddenly receive msg from ying...then cal back her...cause my hp no credict d....then we talk sumthgs lo.....hmm....what i can comment 2 her is just 4gt everythgs la....i noe her feeling....but i cnt say anythgs 2 her cause i noe when i in the situation like her i also dont wan listen 2 my friend.....so just hope she will feel much more better after we talk...cause not really help actually....anyway...hope u stay happy 4ever la...we all like 2 c u smile always....cause u look sweet when u smile^^
i hope u got a happy day tmr cause is ur bday ma....just put all the sad thgs bside 1st la....just like what i did when i go ur party!
TT...darling cnt came 2 find me d 2day....sad lo....dono why after recorver wif him....got other feeling.....weird....feeling like he not tat love me d...mayb i think too much d la....although y'day i cal 2 him he also like dont wan talk wif me....haiz...mayb he really tired d gua....cause he just finish prepare his presentation thgs n i cal him at around 1 midnight.....hope tat really is just i think too much.....

nowaday cnt always update my blog d....

y i cnt always update my blog recently????cause now i seldom slp at home d....but go my sis's house there stay.....so cnt use the pc always.....
i go my sis's house slp then = i din go sch!!!!!haha....cause i dont like sch life!!!!hate tat lots....ntg 2 do there but just dreamin at there.....lolz.....but i stil got go sch wan.....1week agak go 2 times lo.....sure got go 1 time la....cause dont wan kena buang yet....sumore my daddy wont so luan......hehez......
but tmr i wil go merentas desa oo.....go run run also good....haha....but got a bad news for me...cause suddenly i got no ppl 2 fetch me back....=.=....if really dont hav d i think i will walk home again....^^
just now go 2 watch 'transformer' quite nice leh..at queensbay...wakaka.....love the doggie....khong wooi treat me watch movie n drink sumtghs at there....then after movie he fetch me back lo......waw....from queensbay fetch me back 2 tanjung bunga.......really thanks yea.....^^ feel so paiseh....cause really far ma....
haiz wanna think hw i go back liao.....if not tmr i din go again le....TT