what is true friends????

TRUE FRIENDS?????do this ''thgs'' really hav in this world?????
hmm....i believe it until after i come out 2 work for my part time job.....i do not believe it anymore!!
nowaday.....i know no such thgs in this world anymore.....
then what is friends????
in my dictionary now......friends is just take advantage of each other 2 get what they hope 2 get.....
really......even hw close is it......they oni will just take advantage of each other........but no others......
when they know ur secret more....then it will be more dangerous......they wil betray u any time any moment......
why FRIEND will become like this nowaday?????really fu*k off about this......
feel sad amd disapointed wif this enviroment.....n this world.......
mayb it will just my wrong sense.....
anyway just find out about it yourself one day... is it what i write now is correct.....

I HATE U,VANESSA!!

stupid me.....2day wake up at 830am......so din go sch d.....but 2day having chemistry paper r.......damn hate myself when i wake up n know tat already 830am......lucky tat this oni is trial....if not me really can go die d......

nowaday i hate myself more n more........TT....dont know why....feel like everythgs i done is wrong......
some times really think tat.....if i can die now....tat is how good 4 me....but i know i cnt think like tat.....i should b think in possitive way but not nagative......

hope i can be normal back as fast...........................

^^

2day hv math paper oo.....hmm.....i can do it as well than b4 lo.....none like b4 totally dont know what is the question ask about.....hehez.....really thanks lot 2 my tuition teacher leh.....hope in 1 month time i can improve it as fast n get A in my SPM....^^....but dont know can do it not????=.='''
then after back to home.....haha....b pig again lo~~~(always is pig wan la) course y'day too late slp d.....terus slp until 6pm+....wow....nice leh.....some more the whether damn nice.....hehez....
tmr hav physics paper.....shit man....waitin 2 die d lo.....haiz....TT
now i need ppl 2 help me in physics n add math~~~~malay????dont care d la....since i dont wan 2 take Form 6......hehez.....gont get G9 can d......^^

OMG

2day i didn't so sch again.....stupid me...dono what am i thinking now also......already wear sch uniform prepare 2 go sch d.....but stil can change back my uniform then continue slp......really crazy d me......
sad sad sad......2day Aloha is the last day d......actually plan 2 go study at there wif ling wan....but suddenly she called me n told me tat 2day Aloha is last day d......really is a shock news 4 me la.....then when i reach there....saw 5jie they all at there....really.....Aloha 2day is last day d.....tmr start no more Aloha at prangin......dont noe why i will feel sad also....mayb at there i really hav fun....then help them at there.....so din study d lo.....help them 2 clean up every thgs n also serve customer lo.....cause really not enough ppl........
2day is the last day i roll crepes at Aloha......haiz.....TT
now searching 4 other works......mayb.....i wil go ice ice baby work lo.....but it's kinda far 4 me.....dont noe la....everythgs still in thinking now.....mayb like what 5jie said.....now just take our time 2 study 1st since SPM soon.....
nowaday.....out of credict again!!!!!!arghh........

sept 1st blog~~~

2day i din't go sch exam.....cause im fever d.....TT....mayb cause of recenlt always sleep at 1++am then sumore wake up in the early morning around 5++am 2 study....afternoon also totally din sleep at al......i think this is the reason why am i fall sick.....

early morning my papa stil scold me 4 din't go 2 sch.......why every time he just dont wan believe in me????

i go out he said i join wif my bad bad friends again.....i wear nice abit he also say i join sum bad ppl d.....go out late abit also the same.....but i really din join any bad friends!!!!!if got they also will take care of me.....like i ask them bring me along when they go clubbing they will scold me....this also is bad friends????if yes i think they will bring along me but not scold me d....

i think after i get my car liciense i will move 2 my sis's house stay....even tat i hav 2 wake up more early in the morning 2 go sch.....i also don wan stay at this home 2 see my papa's face....zzz....

recently thinking of wanna go NS not....cause the time crush wif the time i wanna go 2 find my mum.....i really mis u mum.....but i so hope 2 go ns la.....it is fun.....but if i go i cnt go visit my mum d.....TT.....how?????i dint see her 4 7 years++.....i really miss her lots n lots.....

[[just now i saw her blog......i really feel so sorry 2 her......1st is june wei now is han.....i nvr think tat will hurt her so much.....but i wanna tel her tat if i really dint think bout her feeling i wont waste the time 2 think tat is't if im wif han will hurt her, is't i don wan start wif him is good 4 her.....but sumbody told me.....han love me n i also got the good feeling wif him.....why i wanna think so much.....not my fault....is han not love her at 1st not i make until han not love her.....if really wan say is who fault.....just can say every1 also got fault......i really really hope tat u will 4giv me about tat.....SORRY!!!!!!!!

i hope our friendship will stay long.....even tat i noe u beh seok me now....or even hate me....but i really care bout u~~]]

[[my leg so ''beautiful'' now.....cause tat day ride a stupid motor without brake.....then while parking hav sum accident.....so my leg kena tat exhaust pipe.....now what i also cnt eat liao....he ask me 2 hav porridge or keow tiao teng 4 1 month time.....sad.....can i do it????lolxz....but quite scare tat got scar on it la....cause kena quie big leh.......]]